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Dar asri V niz, chun holo, oftob har sahar tulu va har shom gurub mekard. Subh, vaqte ki nurhoi avvalini khurshed rui qatrahoi shabnamro mebusid, zamin jon megirift, havo az sadohoi sururomez, hayajonangez, umedbakhsh pur meshud, shomgoh boshad, khudi hamin zamin orom megardidu ba qari toriki furu meraft. Ruz ba ruzu shab ba shab memond. Goh-gohe abri siyohe paydo shuda, radu barq sadoi qahrolud mebarovard, yo sitorai gaflatzadae az osmon kanda meshud va yo rohibi rangparidae az roh meguzashtu ba ikhvon hikoyat mekard, ki dar qaribii dayr palange didaast – vassalom, sipas boz ruz ba ruzu shab ba shab memond.
Rohibon kor mekardandu Hudoro shukr meguftand, murshidi muysafe- di onho argunun menavokht, sherhoi lotini menavisht va ohangho ejod menamud. In muysafedi ajib istedodi favqulodae dosht. Argununro chunon mohirona menavokht, ki hangomi az hujrai u rasidani sadoi argunun hatto kuhansoltarin rohibone, ki gushi nachandon shunavo doshtand, obi dida merekhtand. Vaqte ki az yagon khusus, hatto dar borai oditarin chizho, masalan, oid ba darakhton, hayvonot yo bahr sukhan meguft, uro be tabassum va yo be obi dida gush kardan imkonnopazir bud va chunin ba nazar merasid, ki torhoi dilash niz misli torhoi argunun sado medihand. Vale agar qahr mekard, yo behad khursand meshud va yo dar khususi yagon chizi dahshatangez va buzurg sukhan ogoz menamud, hayajoni beandozae faro megiriftash, dar chashmoni durakhshonash qatrahoi ashk halqa mezadand, rukhsoraash surkh meshud, sadoyash misli rad megurrid va rohibon uro gushkunon his menamudand, ki hayajonu ilhomi vay ba dilashon chi tazyiqe meovarad; dar in guna lahzahoi ajibu hayratangez sohibi hokimiyati behaddu kanore megardid u va agar ba muysafedonash farmon medod, ki khudro ba bahr andozand, hamaashon biduni istisno mekushidand, ki harchi zudtar va bo dilu jon hukmashro ba jo ovarand.
Musiqi, ovoz va sherhoe, ki vay dar onho Hudo, osmon va zaminro mesitud, baroi rohibon manbai sururi hameshagi budand. Bazan chunin meshud, ki az yakrangii zindagi darakhton, gulho, bahor, tiramoh ba dilashon mezad, sadoi bahr gushashonro khasta mekard, az khonishi murgon gashashon meomad, vale istedodi murshidi muysafed, misli non, har ruz lozim bud.
Dahho sol meguzasht va hamono ruz ba ruzu shab ba shab memond. Ba juz murgonu hayvonoti vahshi dar nazdikii dayr jonzode namenamud. Nazdiktarin manzili odami dar durodur voqe bud va baroi az dayr to on jo va yo az on jo to dayr rasidan taqriban sad chaqrim az biyo- bon roh raftan lozim meomad. Ba uburi biyobon tanho kasone jurat mekardand, ki az zindagi bezor shudavu onro tark gufta, ba dayr, chun ba gur, rahsipor megardidand.
Az hamin ru, vaqte ki dar yake az shabho shakhse darvozai dayrro kuft va malum shud, ki on kas az boshandagoni shahr, yak osii zindadil va hayotdust budaast, taajjubu hayrati rohibon haddu kanor nadosht. In shakhs pesh az on ki az murshid duoi khayr bigirad, sharobu taom talab namud. Ba suoli rohibon, ki u chi khel az shahr ba biyobon aftidaast, bo hikoyati duru darozi shikorchiyona javob gardond: ba shikor rafta, az meyor ziyodtar nushida, rahgum zadaast. Ba tashviqi rohibiro ikhtiyor namuda, gunohhoi khudro shustan u javoban tabassume kardu guft: «Man yori shumo nestam».
Vay badi shikamseri khurdanu nushidan ba rohibon, ki khizmatashro ado menamudand, yak chashm davond, malomatomezona sar junbond va guft:
— SHumo, rohibon, bekorkhujaed. Faqat khurdanu nushidanro medonedu bas. Magar jonro az gunoh hamin khel merahonand? YAk fikr kuned: tamomi muddate, ki shumo dar in oromgoh nishasta, mekhuredu menushed va dar qaydi rohatu halovat hasted, muqarrabini shumo jon ba dargohi Hudovand mesuporandu ba jahannam rahsipor meshavand. YAk bubined, ki dar shahr chi voqeahoe rukh medihand!
Guruhe az gurusnagi memirad, guruhe digar ba chi roh kharj kardani zaru zevarashro nadonista, khudro ba daryoi fasodat mezanad va chun magashoi ba asal darmonda halok meshavad. Odamon na din dorandu na diyonat! Ki boyad onhoro najot dihad? Ki boyad onhoro ba rohi haq andozad? Oyo man, ki az subh to shom mastu alastam? Magar ruhi osuda, qalbi purmehr va etiqodro Hudo ba shumo baroi on ato namud, ki in jo daruni chor devor nishinedu kore nakuned?
Sukhanoni mastonai shahri az doirai odob berun va gustokhona budand, vale ba tarzi ajibe ba murshid asar kardand. Muysafed ba rohiboni khud nazare afkand, rangash parid va guft:
– Ikhvon, okhir, u rost meguyad! Voqean ham odamoni bechora az beaqlivu susti dar girdobi fasodu bediyonati halok meshavand, vale mo az joy namejunbem, guyo in ba mo dakhle nadoshta boshad. Pas charo man naravamu Masehoro, ki onho faromushash kardaand, ba yodashon naoram?
Sukhanoni shahri muysafedro tashviq kardand; ruzi digar vay asoyashro girift, bo ikhvon khayru mazur namud va ba shahr rahsipor gasht. Va rohibon az musiqi, az nutqhovu sherhoi u benasib mondand.
Onho yak mohu du moh besabrona intizori mekashidand, vale muysafed barnamegasht. Nihoyat pas az se moh sadoi gushoshnoi asoi u shunida shud. Rohibon ba peshvozi vay shitoftandu suolboronash kardand, vale u ba joi on ki az didori eshon khursand shavad, talkh girist va harfe ba zabon naovard. Rohibon pay burdand: vay bisyor pir va logar shudaast; chehraash khasta budu anduhi buzurge ba on soya meafkand va hangome ki u inoni giryaro sar dod, az vajohatash shakhsi tahqirdidaro memond.
Rohibon niz giristand va hamdardona ba pursish daromadand, ki charo megiryad, az chi sabab chehraash chunin gamgin ast, vale vay harfe dar javob naguft va ba hujrai khud raftu darro bast. U haft ruz dar hujraash nishast, chize na khurdu na nushid, argunun namenavokht, mudom megirist. Ba darkubi va khohishi rohibon az khususi on, ki baroyadu dardi dilashro ba onho kholi kunad, bo sukuti purdavom javob megardond. Nihoyat u baromad. Tamomi rohibonro girdi khud jam kard, bo chehrai giryonu puranduh va nafratbor az khususi on, ki dar se mohi okhir chihoro az sar guzarond, ba naql shuru namud.
Vaqte ki vay rohi khudro az dayr to shahr tavsif mekard, sadoyash oromu chashmonash pur naqshi tabassum bud. Dar roh, meguft u, baroyash murgon mekhondand, juyboron navo mekardand, umedhoi shirinu javon ba dilash hayajon mebakhshidand; vay roh meraftu khudro askare mepindosht, ki ba jang meravad va ba galabai khud itminon dorad; u khayolmand rohravon, sher meguftu surud mekhond va pay naburd, ki chi tavr roh ba okhir rasid.
Vale sadoi u larzid, chashmonash durakhshidand va hamin ki az shahru shahriyon sukhan ogoz kard, tamomi vujudashro hissi gazab faro girift. On chizhoero, ki vay barobari ba shahr vorid shudan did, dar umrash nadida bud va hatto ba tasavvurashon jurat namekard. Tanho in jo, bori avval dar zindagi, dar pironsoli u did va fahmid, ki iblis chi guna tavonovu zishti chi guna zebost, odamon chi guna makhluqi nahifu tarsuvu nochizand. Az tasodufi nosozgor avvalin khonae, ki vay vorid shud, khonai fisqu fahsh bud. Taqriban panjoh kasi serpul be hej guna meyor khurok mekhurdandu sharob menushidand.
Onho masti sharob shuda, surudho mekhondand, bebokona chunon sukhanoni qabehu khunuk me guftand, ki shakhsi khudotars ba guftanashon jurat namekunad; behad ozod, bardam, khushbakht budand onho, na az Hudo, na az iblis, na az marg metarsidand, balki har chi mekhostand, meguftandu mekardand, har jo dilashon mekhostu poyashon mekashid, meraftand. SHarobi arguvoni bo jiloi tilloiash dilu hushi in toifaro ba qayd girifta va, az aftash, nihoyat lazizu khushbuy bud, zero har kas badi nushidanash qanoatmandona tabassum menamud va boz nushidan mekhost. Ba tabassumi kas sharob niz bo tabassum javob megardond va vaqte ki onro menushidand, khushbakhtona jilo medod, guyo medonist, ki chi lazzati ahrimanonae dar khud nuhuftaast.
Muysafed hamono beshtar ba shur omada, az gazab girista, chizhoi didaashro naqlu tavsif mekard. Dar rui miz, dar bayni ayyoshon, meguft vay, zani gumrohi nimbarahnae meistod. Makhluqe az on zebotar va dilkashtarro tasavvur kardan va dar tabiat paydo namudan amri muhol ast. In makhluqi harom javon, muydaroz, sabzina bud, chashmoni siyohu laboni sergusht dosht, loqaydonavu besharmona dandonhoi barf barin sapsafedashro namoish doda tabassum menamud, guyo mekhost biguyad: «Bubined, chi behayo va chi zeboyam man!» Qabathoi shinami shohivu parcha rui kitfoni u mekhobidand, vale zeboi namekhost zeri libos pinhon bimonad va chun sabzai navkhezi bahoron az zeri khok, az zeri qabathoi libos zuran badar meomad. Zani behayo sharob menushid, surud mekhond va khudro ba ikhtiyori har kase medod, ki uro mekhost.
Sipas muysafed bo dastoni az shiddati gazab larzon az khususi poygai aspon, jangi govon, teatrho, korgohhoi rassomon, ki on jo surati zanoni barahnaro mekashandu az loy mesozand, hikoyat kard. U bo hayajon, nihoyat bo shavq va lahni agoni sukhan mekard, guyo ba torhoi noayone nokhun mezad, rohiboni hayratzada har sukhani uro bo tamomi vujud gush mekardand va az shiddati hayajon hatto nafas namekashidand… Muysafed tamomi najobati iblis, dilkashii badi, jazzobiyati bemisoli jismi haromi zanro tavsif kardu iblisro lanat khond, sui hujraash roh girift va az pasash darro bast…
Vaqte ki u subhi ruzi digar az hujraash badar omad, dar dayr az rohibon kase namonda va hama ba shahr firor karda budand.
Tarjumai Abdurahmoni Abdumannon
